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Rating: But never, never have I ceased to love that one, and even on the night I parted from him I loved him perhaps more poignantly than ever. We can truly love only with suffering and through suffering! We know not how to love otherwise. We know no other love. I want suffering in order to love. I want and thirst this very minute to kiss , with tears streaming down my cheeks, this one and only I have left behind.

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I don't want and won't accept any other. But then, it is in despair that we find the most acute pleasure, especially when we are aware of the hopelessness of the situation But I was not equal even to that. I swear, gentlemen, that to be too conscious is an illness- a real thorough-going illness. I'll tell you who does: fools and scoundrels.

The most terrible thing was that I found it positively stupid. And I would have been quite satisfied with intelligence. Let's even say I would even have agreed to a mean expression, provided only that at the same time my face be found terribly intelligent. Answer: Of himself.